That I am too nice and keep looking for the best in people. WHy I have to be the only one subscribing to the "do unto others..." mantra I will never understand. But really is that what I am doing? Yes. Oh well, everyon one always turns around and one ups you in the most ugly way. And the one person you screw over turns out to be the one you shouldnt have... not that one should. But somehow s**t sucks and you move on.
To the next person that comes my way that I will inadvertantly screw over, I apologise to you. You did nothing to be deserving of this, but you see its either I get you first or one day you will (un)knowingly screw me over. This I cannot take a chance on the latter happening, because the pain I dont want you going through is the same pain you will reward me with. Now you understand. I could tell you upfront whats on my mind, and how I will want ourinteractions to go, or that you know the motivations behind my intentions, it might not match with yours and it might but somehow I get the feeling you wouldnt appreciate it due to how I will present it. Perhaps make your cards visible up front and we will both be fine. Its alright though, in this dog eat dog world, all is fair. I have seen the only ones crying are the victims. When they are victors they loose sight of it all.
Either way you look at it, it aint as serious as I have made it. Thats why I am kicking back, and I already know you will get hurt real bad. Not physically, emotionally may be; but I have been getting over it so will you.
Crushes or rather the lack of it.
6 months ago
8 comments:
Doesnt this sound very familiar???
How have you been?
good t0 see u back. how many npeople crying right now?
yeah it does sound familiar true. i guess i see ur point.
No, you wont screw me over, lol...okay that sounds naughty.
Hello, who upset thee?
I stopped expecting everyonw to subscribe to that mantra, but i see where u are coming from.
we can't give up on looking for/expecting the best fro others. But the consequence will be that we will be let down frequently. However, the alternative, not expecting the best, is something I don't ever want to consider.
Hope all is well. Take care.
Apologising for transgressions still uncommitted? That's a new one, bmc. I get the point being made but we must never let the world take our 'innocence' from us. A little of the child must always be left, that trusting, believing self....
As for not having a camera to freeze that moment you saw in the rear view mirror? You did with the words you wrote, actually, and I saw the picture. Well done.
I concur with laspapi that we must never lose that sense of innocence. That belief in the magic of life. That is why Desiderata is one of my favourite poems and almost like a mantra to me especially the last lines "With all it's sham drudgery and broken dreams; it is still a beautiful world".
Don't let anyone take that away from you.
Amazing, cause I wrote a blog post last week entitled Bad Actor which is similiar to this. I decided against posting it though. But I'm like you...'let me know what it is beforehand, cause I am not big on screen test.'
Never change who you are. I too am the same way. continue to be kind and giving. If you get screwed over God will handle them. You can be kind without being nieve.
Do unto others as you would have them do unto you. You will find those who are deserving of your kindness. You atrack what you are.
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